3 posts tagged “life”
Basically this little bunch here is just some typical drippy colorful fun watercolors and acrylics. I also tried my hand at another painting on wood...and am throroughly convinced that I am incapable of creating a "normal" looking girl. They keep coming out creepy and corpselike. Oh well. A reflection of my innermost self, perhaps? ^_~
Heh.
Anywho, I'mm off to post a quick update on styleparade., then I'm off to shower and change for work (hooray hooray :sarcasm:) Have a lovely day!
so over the past few days i've noticed an influx of pictures and status updates on facebook, concerning college graduation. my high school graduating class, the class of 2003, has graduated college. i've seen tons of pictures popping up of my former NPH classmates donning caps and gowns again, ready to take on adulthood and the working world. all the kids i was in national honor society with, all the kids who were in honors and college prep classes with me...all walking cross the stage of the University of Whatever and getting that piece of paper that society cares so much about...
...and i'm not a part of it. and frankly, i don't really care. i don't give a shit if people think that i've fallen behind or whatever. truth is, i have a hard time dedicating myself to getting school over with. why do i continuously enroll in and then drop classes? i only have a year left. and i'm so close that i might as well (and i will eventually) finish anyway. but for what? so that i can get some stupid job in the future that only cares about my credentials? i don't want a career. i don't want something that presumes importance simply because it requires a degree to obtain. i don't want something that will try to take precedence over my life and family and my future husband and kids.
i'll get my degree and then i'll get a job that i enjoy. i don't want to be like the DM at my work, for example. his passion is working for the restaurant. if i ever get to that point in my life then i think i'd rather be dead. its like the same thing anyway. my career will never come first. i want my passion to be living. and i think it's crazy that anyone would let something other than living take the wheel.
okay. that's enough for right now. :) i just felt like getting that out. and by the way i dont mean to be completely bitter. i wish everyone that did graduate sincere congratulations, and i'm sure many of them will go on to do great things in life.
wright's farm & twin oaks' sauce! lol
happy monday :)
when both of your parents live a plane ride away,
& you're lucky to see them once a year, if that;
when, out of the relatives you do have nearby, none are close or reliable,
& they either use you or think you're a screw-up;
when you can count the number of real friends you have on one hand,
& most of these also happen to be states away;
when you don't know if you're going to have a place to live in 2 months,
& you're even less sure how you're going to afford everything;
when you finally find someone who you lovelovelove to the bones
& you convince yourself it's not real to spare yourself any more pain;
i know it may not seem like it, but i'm really working on living without this fear, this needing. i'm trying. believe it or not, i really, really am. i don't need many of the things that i think i need. actually, i don't need anything.
plus, so many people would kill for the level of freedom i have right now.
at this point in my life, there are no strings attached.
